And when we were children, staying at the archduke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.

~ The Waste Land, "The Burial of The Dead", Eliot

Friday, October 24, 2008
walking with grace
i will back in nyc, at the same old in january, interning at the contracts and rights department as well as doing a day at ap travel news. it'll be a learning experience. i am delighted to have an excuse to be in the city again. i love new york, because every major decision that i owned and made for myself took place in new york city. deciding to leave, deciding to leave another place, learning about the death of the first person i ever cared for, learning to love someone in the city, dreaming of returning to the city together, with a dog, because of that, new york will always be a part of me. ithaca is the town that nurtures me, tells me my voice is valued, tells me i can be happy, and tells me that i am capable of loving. in ithaca, the brown leaves and air, teach me to respond to my body. here, one gets a sense truth and hope is still valued. i have a boss at the publishing press who campaigns in philly for obama. i read 17-century manuscripts in a library, reading on out of the fear that they will crumble into dust in my hand if i wait too long. here i can speak with confidence and tell people about their own country, without fear of sounding foreign. here i am in love with the most wonderful person, the person i respect and love, the person who gave back a broken new york to me, all fixed and brand new, on christmas last year. (merry christmas, he said. merry christmas, i said, unnerved by the skaters and the christmas tree, the horrendous holiday traffic, and the prospect of a flight i had to catch to singapore in 3 hours) and after all this, i know if it lets me, i can go back to the city again, knowing exactly what i want, walking with grace.

[publishing] Publishers Weekly . Dystel & Goderich . New York Center for Independent Publishing . Association of American University Presses . Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators

[people] clarisse . nurul . aunty zarina (ummi's bakery) . jeremy . pak . cyril . softblow . karen & kenny (booksactually) . eric . joel .

[other loves] digitaljournalist . ballet dictionary . poetshouse . urbanwordnyc

[me] dawn, singapore, new york city, ithaca.

[yesterday] holding on tight -- vol ii
death and new york city
ever get afraid of sounding stupid, boring, uninfo...
sleep activism
things im excited about
thinking about flight
accents and attractions
i got an on-campus job--production assistant at th...

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