HOLD ON TIGHT

HE SAID, MARIE, MARIE, HOLD ON TIGHT And when we were children, staying at the archduke's, My cousin's, he took me out on a sled, And I was frightened. He said, Marie, Marie, hold on tight. And down we went. In the mountains, there you feel free. I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter. ~ The Waste Land, "The Burial of The Dead", Eliot Thursday, February 14, 2008 my funny valentine our cat (yes, our house has a cat, it's name is chopper), escaped into my room today, gazed itself in the mirror like narcissus, scared me in the toilet. (woah, what are you doing here? when you open the door, the last thing you expect is a cat.) my funny valentine. i'm condensing, the necessary reading list and schedule for my weekend. writing it out on a blue piece of paper (i intend to write out everything i need to read for the next week on on a thursday afternoon, and actually, flip through the volume of pages i have to read while writing out the reading list, so i know the materiality of what is to come. because juggling multiple seminars, is not a skydive, or a ski where you jump randomly and the snow waits for you at the bottom, insulating and protecting you.) writing, it out, i laugh a little bit to myself (and to tell you the truth, this sort of scares me, this laughing to myself), almost amused, slightly uncomprehending, at the same time. today is valentine's day, my parent's wedding anniversary. i'm glad they got married on valentine's day. because when i have no date, no boyfriend, no expectations, not even the disappointment at no date, no boyfriend (and thus i can safely say, i am truly happy, and at peace with myself, and say this without irony, but just very matter-of-factly, and well, happily), just the gladness that it is thursday, and not tuesday, or monday and i can thus treat myself to a long gym session (like now) i'm glad that i can be happy for them, glad to be happy for that which has lasted, for a love with all its flaws and disappointments, it must be something real. happy valentine's day, all of you. posted by dawn # 1:56 PM Comments: Post a Comment << Home		[publishing] Publishers Weekly . Dystel & Goderich . New York Center for Independent Publishing . Association of American University Presses . Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators [people] clarisse . nurul . aunty zarina (ummi's bakery) . jeremy . pak . cyril . softblow . karen & kenny (booksactually) . eric . joel . [other loves] digitaljournalist . ballet dictionary . poetshouse . urbanwordnyc [me] dawn, singapore, new york city, ithaca. [yesterday] home animal lives the republic from wikipedia, under the keyword search "biopower... Joyas Voladoras duck time a certain violence superbowl slush and snow the strangest thing [archives] January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009

HE SAID, MARIE, MARIE, HOLD ON TIGHT

And when we were children, staying at the archduke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.

~ The Waste Land, "The Burial of The Dead", Eliot

Thursday, February 14, 2008

my funny valentine

our cat (yes, our house has a cat, it's name is chopper), escaped into my room today, gazed itself in the mirror like narcissus, scared me in the toilet. (woah, what are you doing here? when you open the door, the last thing you expect is a cat.) my funny valentine.

i'm condensing, the necessary reading list and schedule for my weekend. writing it out on a blue piece of paper (i intend to write out everything i need to read for the next week on on a thursday afternoon, and actually, flip through the volume of pages i have to read while writing out the reading list, so i know the materiality of what is to come. because juggling multiple seminars, is not a skydive, or a ski where you jump randomly and the snow waits for you at the bottom, insulating and protecting you.) writing, it out, i laugh a little bit to myself (and to tell you the truth, this sort of scares me, this laughing to myself), almost amused, slightly uncomprehending, at the same time.

today is valentine's day, my parent's wedding anniversary. i'm glad they got married on valentine's day. because when i have no date, no boyfriend, no expectations, not even the disappointment at no date, no boyfriend (and thus i can safely say, i am truly happy, and at peace with myself, and say this without irony, but just very matter-of-factly, and well, happily), just the gladness that it is thursday, and not tuesday, or monday and i can thus treat myself to a long gym session (like now) i'm glad that i can be happy for them, glad to be happy for that which has lasted, for a love with all its flaws and disappointments, it must be something real. happy valentine's day, all of you.

posted by dawn # 1:56 PM

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