HE SAID, MARIE, MARIE, HOLD ON TIGHT

And when we were children, staying at the archduke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.

~ The Waste Land, "The Burial of The Dead", Eliot

Sunday, November 25, 2007
trauma and the heart
im studying trauma theory now, freud, felman, caruth, remembering certain conversations, certain scenes. i think, we need to repeat certain nightmares until we have mastered them, reordered them (like verses in poetry), interpreted them. this is why poetry is important. poetry is the point of departure and the point where we emerge, newly arrived. i don't write often, because i really want to be constantly surprised by myself, by my ability to pull away from myself in poetry. this is why theory and postmodernism, is not about the destruction, but about, reconstruction. it is about, fundamentally, the heart.

there can be no forgiveness if one cannot truly master the terrible event. how can you ask for forgiveness, when you dont even know what it is you want to be forgiven for? you can you give forgiveness when you don't know what you want forgiven? i think prayer, like poetry, is about the struggle for mastery over the fact.

[publishing] Publishers Weekly . Dystel & Goderich . New York Center for Independent Publishing . Association of American University Presses . Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators

[people] clarisse . nurul . aunty zarina (ummi's bakery) . jeremy . pak . cyril . softblow . karen & kenny (booksactually) . eric . joel .

[other loves] digitaljournalist . ballet dictionary . poetshouse . urbanwordnyc

[me] dawn, singapore, new york city, ithaca.

[yesterday] breathe
pretty
the memory of a goldfish
letter to yantai
all of a sudden
happiness
differences
Ultrasound
in my own time
Second winter

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