HE SAID, MARIE, MARIE, HOLD ON TIGHT

And when we were children, staying at the archduke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.

~ The Waste Land, "The Burial of The Dead", Eliot

Sunday, January 20, 2008
from spain, from singapore, with love.
so in this trainstop, the girl comes in at 5.30am, switches on the light, melts --- yes melts--- my pencil and burns--yes burns--my receipts. and starts writing in her journal with the lights on. i don't know what to do, i pick up my phone, listen to a drunk voicemail from my best friend in new york. start getting angry with my life. then i wake up, and its lovely out, and the girl is getting ready to go to church. and two people are smiling.

i feel funnily closer to you ever since december. i dont know if it was the same for you it's probably just that was the time i was trying to reconcile my beliefs and was super confused and you helped me alot. im going to pray soon, i don't pray in front of people, because i can't pray as fast as everyone else, i take very long to think of what i want to promise god. they're okay liao, now there's less tension and they fight only about sweet sour pork. im actually very happy, i dont know why. even though i only have one day of rest a week, it's all going fine and i have great people around me at school. i miss you and you're obviously more than fine haha.

I´m really glad you´ve found somewhere peaceful. Madrid is slower than nyc and it makes for a nice break. I met some lovely girls last semester and I miss them, although I´m starting to meet new people. I also fell in love last semester- unrequited love, the craziest kind. You know what´s great? I´ve stopped being obsessive about what I eat and it´s made me happier. Living here helps because there´s a strong food culture. I cook a lot and have found a cooking school here where I´d like to take classes during the semester. Today I´m on the hunt for cheesecloth. Also, all that hair dye is slowly growing out, and although it´s a drab color, I like that it´s all mine. ;) Spanish literature and culture is my major right now, but since I´ll finish it by the time I leave here, I need to find something else to do. I should print the list of majors and minors and eliminate what I can´t do and then see what´s left. What are you studying? Dating anyone?

[publishing] Publishers Weekly . Dystel & Goderich . New York Center for Independent Publishing . Association of American University Presses . Society of Children's Book Writers and Illustrators

[people] clarisse . nurul . aunty zarina (ummi's bakery) . jeremy . pak . cyril . softblow . karen & kenny (booksactually) . eric . joel .

[other loves] digitaljournalist . ballet dictionary . poetshouse . urbanwordnyc

[me] dawn, singapore, new york city, ithaca.

[yesterday] train stops
apples and milk
the girl and the mirror
travelling
packed
beauty world
slowness
signed my contract for 308 wait avenue in ithaca, ...
the reality
cups

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